— feeling doubt
Twerp - Mark Goldblatt

Sometimes when you brace yourself for a storm, you get a gentle breeze. The storm only comes when you're braced for nothing whatsoever.

page 16


Knowing that, in a thousand years, nothing you're doing or not doing will matter frees you up to do what your heart tells you to do.

page 189


Julian Twerski (aka Twerp), was involved in some sort of bullying incident and his English teacher has him writing about what happened to help him understand it better. Because, from what we know, Julian is a good kid who made the wrong choice. It takes most of the book for Julian to finally write about the incident. In the mean time, we get insight into his decision making process and what goes through his mind.


I must say that I almost stopped reading in Chapter 1 when Julian starts to recount an incident with his friend Lonnie and a pigeon.



[Julian chucks a rock at the pigeon, at Lonnie's urging. Both of them think there is no chance he will hit it. So, of course he does hit it. The pigeon is obviously injured, even though there is no blood. The boys fight over leaving it or killing it. In the end, Julian takes the pigeon home and tries to save it, but it dies anyway.]


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Let's just say I was cringing through the entire chapter. Though it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Anyway, Julian just seems like a dumb kid who is easily influenced by others. But as he writes down the things that happen in his everyday life, he seems to grow and learn.


I don't really have much to say about this book. It was ok. If you want to read a book about bullying or about kids learning to listen to that little voice in their heads instead of what their friends are telling them to do, there are better books out there. I didn't really connect with the characters or even like them very much. I get that Julian is a "good boy" but in the end, I don't get why he did the things he did in the first place. If that makes any sense.


Recommended to:

I would rather recommend Bystander by James Preller.